Lately I’ve been exhausted trying to fit into a box that has gotten too small. Work makes me feel small, and I’ve grown into a bigger role in my own life. Each week I go to therapy and reflect more on who I’m becoming. The same goes for my monthly psychiatrist appointments. I’m acknowledging that bipolar disorder is something I want to delve deeper into. Not because it’s all I care about, but because it’s the one thing in my life that I have control over. I choose to politely and neatly tuck away my disorder from the public eye, when the reality is –  it’s here to stay. I’ve been trying to make a traditional world bend for a non traditional me. But the truth is, I should be kicking in the door making my own way. I’m asking for accommodations when the reality is that I don’t need an accommodation – I need a workplace that’s stigma and shame free. So, how do you find a place that allows you to embrace the highs and lows of your disorder? You don’t. You literally have to make your own way. I believe that by this time next year I’ll be making the world a better place for those of us who suffer from bipolar disorder and anxiety. I just have to find my voice on a bigger scale.